life

I feel strongly, deep down inside, I was designed to do something great, something memorable. Why I am sitting on my butt so focused and driven to pursue one thing is beyond me. I really want to put myself out there. YES, there is fear but sometimes I just wanna kick fear in the butt and claim my right to my happiness. What is my happiness? I seriously don't know. I dream big, yes everyone knows that, but being unable to accomplish any of my goals brings me into a deep state of depression. Sadly, I feel stuck, and I regret everyone of my choices. I feel like I wasted so much time thinking and not acting. I still to this very day ask questions like "who am I?" and "what do I want to do next?"... 

GRR, I am absolutely disappointed in myself. I definitely want to partner up with ambitious people and just GO FOR whatever comes our way. I WANT change desperately and badly. I'm so tired of my dull, mundane life. I know people think I'm young as a 22 year old, but really I wish I was doing more with my life when I was 5!... So to make a change now, I do feel old.