Friday, April 15, 2011

NYU

Btw, I just got into NYU..
and now I feel like my life is just beginning!
this is the CHANGE that I have been looking for,
most likely in AUG- I'll move to a new BLOG-
and have a better camera..
that way I can document my whole NEW life in NEW YORK :)
I am psyched!

figured

So I figured something out about all boys- and I must say this is pretty universal with them..
it must be innate or something
but remember that "chase" or the "game"
that we all played in high school?
Well I noticed that.. even though girls sort of grow out of it, I don't really think guys do..
No matter how mature they are,
I think they always carry this pride with them.. this pride to always "win" or always be the "man" in a relationship..

How does this work?
well you see relationships are a tug of war..
you are either pulling, or he is...
Basically if you are pulling hard (trying hard to not care) he doubles his effort to win you back..
I know this is so lame..
but i honestly think its true..

I know my boyfriend when he was unsure where my heart was.. well I was unsure, cuz I just got out of a two yr relationship, I was pretty distant...
but anyways, do you know how hard he TRIED?
HE tried really hard..
and went out of his way.. to "woo" me..
then there were times.. he found out that I was going to hang out with my ex's friends..
and he.. tried to see me as much as possible before I went..
coincidence?
I don't think so..
the more he did for me, the more I became "crazy" about him..
I let my entire guard down..
he still tries, but now that he knows he has me- because I became this crazy clingy gf.. I don't think he tries as "hard"
I'm basically giving him my end of the rope..
dumb?
YES! ALL GUYS HATE CLINGY GIRLS..
I know its hard to do, especially when you are one, but sometimes we just need to back off
you know those guys that think of their girl - day and night?
its because the girl doesn't CARE.. or its not her priority to .. think much about him..
but it drives guys crazy..

every time my boyfriend thinks i'm upset, I withdraw myself because I just stop caring.. about everything
but that's when I see he tries so much harder, trying to bind us back to normal..
I guess it'll never be normal,
I used to not have that much pride in myself, but thanks to my ex...
I no longer want to be that girl that likes the guy more..
I really feel like the GUY has to always LOVE the girl the most..
she must be pursued and cared for at all times..
I honestly believe the girls heart is precious.