My kind of guy

So this past wk, I have discovered that... many of my friends have broken up with their boyfriends.. including myself.
The thing is, all these relationships have been LONG TERM, and I always question, when did it get to that point that everything fell apart?

It took me a while to realize what it is that I want in a relationship, and it was painful to see that the one you loved was NOT the one providing it. :/
Its a tricky situation- but I guess its realistic.

There is always one person that falls out of love in the relationship
One person that always gives up
one person that stops trying
and one person that gets too comfortable.

All these .. take a toll on relationships... and eventually end it..

So what were my reasons?
Well I guess I shouldn't be pinpointing all the mistakes but rather sharing with you what I want in a relationship, therefore showing you what I didn't get.

Basically- I may be a total optimist and be naive in thinking that this kind of love exists..
but I want it..
is it wrong of me?

Sigh.

When I meet someone, I want them to think i'm funny. I find that humor is a HUGE part of my life, and a guy that can make me laugh because he WANTS to see me happy, is a keeper. But at the same time, I want him to see that I can make him happy as well. So none of this whole looks business, Its really about the happy heart.

I want a guy that keeps my happiness a priority, even in the the most busiest times, I want him to look into my eyes, and see the person that I am. Many times, people take their relationship for granted, put it on their list of things to do, and then when they see the person, they space out.

I want a guy that doesn't get too comfortable and stops trying. I want a guy that constantly makes the girl feel special, and show her that he is there for her...

I want a guy that tries.. his best.. I don't WANT the best.. I want HIS BEST
that's all I want.
But now i'm broken, because there are many things that weren't right, but I took it .. I became a push over.. and just another girl in their life. This kind of ending, makes me guarded in various ways- and you wonder.. WHY ARE PEOPLE GUARDED? there are reasons... good ones..

gain our trust, gain our hearts.

Sometimes, I feel like in the end, the love never existed..

I so badly wish.. he would fight for me.. to prove that his love was real
but I guess the battle is done..
we lost.