My 2012 Changes

2012- People in your life affect you NO MATTER WHAT.. even when they pass you by. we ALL need to understand we ARE the company WE KEEP. Sister- Thru her life, I learned to be THANKFUL for ALL I HAVE, for who I am, and how far I have come. I have learned that people come from ALL walks of life.. and we as PEOPLE from another so called "life" need to ACCEPT that.. Friend - Taught me it is SO IMPORTANT TO COMMUNICATE CLEARLY.. not just communicate.. BUT BE DETAILED/ specific.. because things definitely get lost in translation.. sheesh.. and you think this is a relationship bf/gf issue.. its DEF NOT.. best friends can FIGHT on... for hours... too HAHAH Friend- Taught me to see things POSITIVELY, and really shows me what REAL LOVE looks like.. Her thoughtfulness keeps me.. INCREDIBLY SANE BF- Taught me patience, to STOP OVERTHINKING every little thing, to see things differently, and most of all if things can be changed then work on it, and if it can't then to let go and accept it :) He above all can keep me grounded with a much needed REALITY check... very difficult for me and yet he can manage :) Roomie: taught me to have fun and let go sometimes. My seriousness and her excitement sure make a great duo My entire OT class: omg true bliss.. the BIGGEST encouragement in LIFE.. my motivation.. this is what they are.

pattern

My life has always been a consistent pattern no matter how much I try to change it or digress from it, I seem to come right back to where I was.. and I always thing "geez, nothing is ever going to change" But I guess this is where I was stuck, with this whole idea of change.. what is the purpose to change? usually people change for other people and maybe I was one of them, in fact I AM one of them. So now that I know that, maybe I don't even need to change.. I have an amazing boyfriend that is teaching me to stop "over-thinking"life. If you are happy, it is simply that .. "be happy" why look for a flaw? why try to break a beautiful thing, it'll end if it needs to .. on a greater note or for a greater purpose.. so make the most of each moment, each breath... but at the same time KNOW how to pick yourself up and move on.. life is WAY to short.. to LINGER.. make the changes that disrupt your life.. keep at the things that make you happy and APPRECIATE everything- negative and positive. I am beginning to understand that it is NOT the approval of others that I seek, it is simply my own.. and from there.. I can seek the changes I need. LIFE IS GREAT, I know when to cut ties, when to embrace love, know how to confront, know how to work hard, know how to STOP overthinking and STOP listening to everyone ELSE's opinions Simply.. LIVE. LOVE. and HAVE FAITH (totally cliche but totally true)