What is Love?

I think when it comes to relationships..
it ultimately has to lead to one thing
"love"

If it can't get there, what's the point?
Then its just infatuation.
And that just leads to heartbreak.

But my question is,
what is love?
how do we define it, feel it, know it?

I think in my own "version" of love
LOVE is simply being "selfless"

I mean to be honest, who in this world do we love the most and are willing to do anything for?
OURSELVES.
Yup, we are all selfish, but taking care of ourselves is essential..
we make ourselves the priority
we make ourselves #1
we will go out of our way to make sure we are taken care of and feel comfortable.

so what can it mean to love someone else?
same concept.
but project our love for ourselves towards another individual.

That means you make them ur new priority
you make sure they are comfortable, even for your own sake
you make sure they are happy
you make the sacrifice for them
you take the bullet
you lift them up in times of trouble
you drop everything to see them
you smile when u hear or think of them
you think about them more often than u think of anything else.
you look at other people, and say "can't compare to what I got"
you get reminded of them thru the small details in life
you talk about them in the highest regard
you take their side no matter what
you constantly keep the relationship alive by giving the right amount of one- on - one time
you are in clear communication with them, letting them know, reinforcing them that you are still here
you plan things for them, so you can make them feel special
you do everything in your power, to MAKE them know they are special.
you cater their needs before yours
you are INVOLVED in their life, family, school, work, etc.
you let everyone KNOW you are taken
you are not afraid to make things public (not PDA, just show signs that you are in a relationship)
you are not AFRAID of being in a relationship with them
you have to believe they are the "one"
you have to believe you can't live without them (I say this in the most non- psychotic way) I say this because people tend to take other people for granted, and without this mentality, people tend to forget and lose sight of the relationship. The thing is you can't control how the other person feels, so if this idea is out, and two people can't appreciate being together, then they will only become "comfortable" and nothing more. Just know, any individual that doesn't feel special, will eventually walk away, no matter how weak/ or strong that person is. People need to realize, you can LOSE anyone, anytime if you don't LOVE. And once they walk away, you say to yourself, damn I could have treated her/him better because I just lost the best thing in my life"

So, if you love someone.. let them know..
if you love someone, don't treat them badly and think they will stay by ur side.
if you love someone, don't let them walk away because you didn't give them enough.
DON"T do the bare minimum and think its okay.
Because that doesn't show love.

so this is what I feel "true love" is all about.
the whole list above can be summed up in just one word "selfless"
Without that, trust me, you will lose the girl/guy that you are taking for granted.

There are so many couples out there that I see, and I think "wow, they are perfect together"
When they do absolutely nothing, but stare into each others eyes, even in a crowded room
stand by each other
I know there is love. For some reason, no matter what, it shines through to other people.
congrats to them for achieving it. Seriously, its hard to find.

Food.

I think I have been lacking H2O in my diet :/
Sometimes I just forget, do you?

I mean I remember to drink green tea everyday.. but that has caffeine
and you know what caffeine does to ur renal system right? It makes you body reabsorb LESS water, which actually can end up dehydrating all your cells. YUP.. but I do take all the antioxidants with me lol.. but still.
I need to stop FORGETTING to drink water.

and my lack of exercise is probably the main reason my energy is so low and my sleep habits are off!
I keep waking up at 3 am now because I'm either restless or hungry.
It really is taking a toll on my body I hate it.. and taking sleeping meds will only make me MORE drowsy.
I can't wait to go back to ballet class and do some jogging in the mornings. New york has a lot of joggers at central park, I love it :)

I want to start taking multivitamins now for complete nourishment of my body. I've taken vit B and calcium in the past..
but I do want to start having other supplements in my diet. A, E, B5, B12 <- very important!

I wish I was an expert on proper nutrition and diet, so much chemistry is involved... -_-
but I do hope to continue eating my fruits/ veggies on a daily basis. Can't go wrong there lol.

*decrease sugar intake

Product Review

BOOTS-So... I need to "recall" on all the "boots" products.
I don't think its as effective as it says. -_- Sigh but their "vintage" line still looks REALLY CUTE lol

BEST DRUG STORE BRAND: I would have to say loreal. It endures a lot.. My fave is their mascara and eyeliner..
infallible REALLY does what it says. It lasts 18 + hrs.. no streaks .. and looks fresh.

WORST BRAND: Maybelline - EVERYTHING about it sucks.. its like watered down product.. its just not .. reliable.

Product I want to try: Olay 7 signs of aging. I hear A LOT of women rave about this product and I think since all the reviews are there to back it up I should try.

Product I'm obsessed with : BURTS BEES! everything about this line.. the radiance night cream is my fave! and their spot treatment works! like REALLY WORKS! This companies price is just too expensive, but all in all I think its worth it. Oh and another con sometimes I don't like the smell of many of their products lol. But I am a uber fan :)

My toner: Milk of Magnesia, strange huh but it works to keep ur makeup on longer and looking matte longer. Its cheap too!

Kate.

I read this one article where Kate Hudson made a quote, that I don't know if I agree with or not.

Basically she said..

"No human is monogamous. We all stray.

It not about that in relationships. Its about.. keeping a happy home

Its okay as long as the guy never gets caught. "

what do you guys think?

Relationships

Sometimes I hate being an a relationship..

not to say i'm not happy

but why do all relationships come with drama.. seriously, I don't know a single relationship that has not fought. Although it's inevitable, sometimes I think its so unnessary in my life. -_-

As a single girl, you can gather yourself, better yourself, and focus on your personal goals.

As a girl in a relationship, you have to constantly think of the other person, worry, stress, wonder if they still feel the same way or if their feelings faded, jealousy becomes an issue, they look and compliment other girls, we all look at other people and wonder if they are "better".. ahh this is all so sad.. I HATE IT..

I never wanted to be that girl, I never wanted to change who I was.. especially not like the way I have been. Its something I can't control either.. I feel like I becoming this psychotic paranoid girlfriend.. and I HATE girls like that..

What I need to work on.. is to not let things get to me.. I need to be more apathetic with everything.. but HOW? howwwww? Ideally, I think its best if the guy is constantly reassuring.. but they never are.. they are sort of lazy in this area.. lol.

sigh. I wonder if I'm just a weak person?I'm crazy observant, and I think over time I have seen many guys in relationships that have these googly eyes and hit on other girls despite having a girlfriend.. and I have seen too many to COUNT! I just never want to be one of those girls that gets screwed over with her heart.. I try to be on my guard.. but letting these small things get to me I know.. is a sign of weakness.

Relationships are hard.. communication is key.. independence and being strong minded is the answer to my problem. I really do miss who I was. Relationships can bring out the worse in people.. no matter how wonderful.

AH, I need a break from myself..