random thoughts in the moment.

1) I hate cops- they totally suck
2) I hate my car- its cursed
3) I like being at starbucks
4) I love my job, hate the commute
5) My boyfriend makes me happy
6) I keep thinking of my future
7) I'm nervous about new york
8) I hate the restaurant business
9) I'm planning on taking more classes just incase i need to change career paths
10) I feel really behind.
11) I miss my best friends
12) I have amazing girl friends in LA
13) Writing relieves me but hurts my head at the same time.
14) I'm tired.. I want to go to the spa and relax..
15) super stressed for some reason. -_-
16) The end.

True Story

So I asked out my boyfriend yesterday to be my "boyfriend"
you guys must be thinking.. "uh... why didn't you let him do it?"

LOL

Well he did..
in the sweetest way EVER..
but I said NO

because we all know that I just got out of my 1st serious relationship.
I know my whole lesson on "rebounds" trust me.. I learned in college when I actually USED someone for that reason..
SO bad.. and extremely hurtful to the other person.
I learned..

so I knew this guy was different..
he cared..
and not just in a "hey, baby ,, ur fine" kind of CARE
i'm talking about the genuine "I LOVE YOU FRIEND" kind of care!

do you know how rare that is..??
to find that .. to find a friend that you mesh SO WELL with..
and finally taking it to a WHOLE NEW LEVEL???

it was such a hard transition for me..
but.. he made it so easy..
he made it so clear
he let me knowww
that he liked me for reasons BEYOND the superficial..
he liked me for me..
and wanted to take care of me
and cherish me

He sought me like a treasure..
and seriously EVERYDAY
never let me FORGET it
... HE NEVER STOPPED making me feel special..

He's different..
and for the first time
I feel like
I am in a good place
and I am "happy"

But yes I did it in the MOST cheesy TACKY way :(
i bought him a really cute cupcake and attached a home made note on it
it had.. a question mark on the front
and inside said "will you be my boyfriend?"
and he said of course :)

If you wanna know how he asked.. let me know and i'll b happy to share..
the more I share about him..
the more even you will see that he is different..
sort of made for me..

still.. on the same page..
still trying to make each other happy <3

Girls are Evil.

If you're reading this..
it probably doesn't apply to you
but these days
I just have to VENT
GIFNiawdnawidnawidnawd

Mk.

Well people that know me
should know that about 95% of my friends are girls
and people in that 95%
are LOYAL, LOVING, CARING, and ESP. DRAMA FREE.
I am DRAWN to those kind of girlfriends..
and I care for my girls SO MUCH.. I would do anything for them.
My true loyalty stands with them..
No BOYS.

but of course there are those few exceptional GIRLS..
and I am NOT their friends for legitimate reasons..
REASONS being.. they are
DRAMA STARTERS, GOSSIPERS, and HATERS.
YES, there are so many girls that HATE me for no reason, find it difficult to find me happy, and their whole purpose in life is to ruin mine.
SAD, INSECURE, STUPID, EVIL girls..
yes they exist
and yes, no matter how far I get from those girls..
they still like to cause a spark which eventually can cause a FIRE, that I can't even blow out.

I thought this whole kind of drama ended in high school, maybe COLLEGE..
but seriously..
THOSE GIRLS NEED TO FRKN GROW UP ... FOCUS ON THEIR SAD LIFE.

sigh, this is my one vent, my one HATE, and my one PEEVE in girls..
please don't be one.