interior

I'm not big on the whole modern movement.. no matter what it is.. but sometimes.. modern designers have got it right.. and they really no how to utilize their space and color palette. Here are a few that I think is simple, clean, and yet its bold.

The bathroom- reminds me of japan.

such a clean looking living room.

product review

Shampoo:

Dove- NOT good- their commercial should share the CONS of their product and how dermatologist don't like dove at all. Hair loss is extreme. Contains oil which can irritate the skin and can leave your hair oily at the end of the day.

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Suave- Very skeptical at first because I saw it as a cheap product, but actually dermatologist recommend it because it contains only natural ingredients without the harsh chemicals. Left my hair feeling CLEANER, less hair loss, and more volume without getting oily at the end of the day.

interesting.

Lotions:

Aveeno- You would think with all the hype of this line, that it'll transform your life. EEk. wrong. I feel like this product doesn't do anything. No pros or cons. Makes the price not worth it. It can also leave you feeling oily and sticky when you go out.

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Caudalie- New found discovery. With the amount I love grapes, its a wonder why I never used it sooner! Filled with antioxidants and the right amount of moisture, even their cheapest products reveal better skin- more radiance after one use! Seriously!

Perfume:

Marc Jacobs Daisy- Such a light perfume but so sweet! I absolutely WANT it because its not overpowering and it smells fresh

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Moschino cheap and chic- A lot stronger, but with a lemony flowery scent. I love it too.

Milk:

Regular milk- filled with hormones from cows, hard to digest, can turn into curd. yuck.

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Soymilk- filled with the same nutrients. Feels lighter. Is healthier and can still provide the same amount of calcium that milk is so popular for. I love soymilk, especially the one with vanilla added.

*diet trick*- Ice Green tea sweetened only with honey because honey contains antioxidants, moisture, and believe it or not enzymes that produce hydrogen peroxide helping in the healing process of the body :D. In general, green tea has definitely helped me boost my metabolism. Usually eating out late or eating sweets, I can gain 5-7 pounds EASILY.. but thanks to green tea, my weight has been stable no matter what!

Fickle bean

Ok. Fickle me. Fickle bean.

I would consider these words to be attributed to me but if YOU really think about it, I think I am just passionate, lol.

I have been known to have a knack for seeing other people's talents and placing them in the best career/ path in life. Taking into account personality traits, habits, and ability (skills), I can easily see a person's talents. I can do that for nearly anyyone that I choose to observe or get to know but I CAN"T do it to myself. sad.

So these days I have been extremely focused on pursuing a career in Occupational therapy. I have talked myself into believing it is good for me and it is RIGHT for me based on my interest and passion. But as I get closer to the ultimate goal, for some reason, I feel like I can push myself to do more. Yes, I have talked about all these things I have wanted to do numerous times and you're probably thinking, ugh sharon just FREAKIN decide. But I can't. Even though I am so close, I am so far. And with that kind of mentality I make room to squish in some other career choice because a little voice inside my head tells me ITS NOT TOO LATE! *sigh*

So these are the careers I have been considering STRONGLY based on everything that I truly TRULY love and am passionate about:

1) dietician

2) interior designer

3) physician assistant

4) occupational therapist

5) entrepreneur- My own tea cafe

These top five careers- OMG I would love to do ALL OF IT at once. Is that even possible? It would be seriously amazing if I could be all 5 things but AH the limits of humans. I have laid out a road map on how to achieve each of these careers so now I gotta choose the ONE that will truly TRULY make me happy -_-. and the one that I am willing to sacrifice my life for. Help?

Home sweet home

As I come home late from work, school, phil's, katt's, or from a cafe, and what not... I realize that I automatically go straight up to my room and close the door to either sleep, work, or plan something. I feel like my life has continuously been this sort of effortless, mundane pattern of leaving and entering my house. It wasn't until this very night that I came home and I actually took a step back to take in the scenery . In that moment as I just stayed frozen in the silence and serenity of this place I call home, I begin to breathe and take in what actually exist in front of me. It may not make much sense, but I have not been home for a while (not physical presence). My mind has not grasped onto this reality of being home- a place where family, laughter, conversations, arguments all take place. I should stay home more often and not just cooped up in my room. I should really live and interact with my family. We know they are there for us no matter what, but sometimes that mentality forces us to take them for granted. I don't like that and I don't want to live like that. I want to keep all my friends, boyfriend, and family in a good balance. Some stuff needs to change, starting from home. :D

Inspired.

Ah, when I watch people from all walks of life do what they love or are actually good at something, I become TRULY envious. No matter what it is, even if I don't like it. They are inspiring. So inspiring that I am exploding with a drive to take ACTION. 

Maybe I should attempt to live out my life a little differently. Yes, as of right now I am tied down to two jobs, classes, grad school apps, and GRE test. But 2011, I shall be making a lot of changes. It's a long way from now but I think my freedom will allow me to be selfish for a year and do what ever the heck I want to do. 

What those changes are, is a secret but I'm very excited. I might even start planning it now and work slowly towards all of it. Eep, I'm excited. 

side note: I love cute things.. its absolutely brilliant 

just simple paper cups. 

Love.

Do you honestly believe in true love? That the moment you find it in a person, they are the only ones for you? 

I used to think this way. I used to believe that life really COULD be a fairy tale or even to some degree. With every guy, came new expectations and new hopes. But with every guy came failure and disappointment. Still, I dreamed on that my prince charming was OUT there. That he will come find me and we will be happily ever after. 

eek! WRONG. 

Love is such a subjective term. Its no longer how we KNOW we feel, its a matter of how we THINK we feel. And just by that, love ceases to exist. Why? because our thoughts change, and our thoughts wander. If we knew something is a FACT, then its impossible for it to change. but we don't. 

Let's be realistic, we are all humans. What does that even mean? For some reason, everyone can agree that human nature has a dark side. A side that opposes what is good. So what is that dark side in EVERY human? dishonesty in every relationship. We let our minds wander and we start looking at other people thinking, wow they are so pretty or they are so sweet, I wonder what my life would be like with them? Yes, all of us have checked out other people but we expect our partners to NEVER do such a thing... but HA! They clearly do because they themselves are human. 

*sigh* If we can no longer see the person we're with as the ONLY person for us, then how do relationships possibly work? I don't get the functions and reality of it, basically what is the point? Maybe we all sugarcoat love, but it could perhaps be for everyone, bluntly speaking "designed to fill a VOID of loneliness, so we all settle with a guy we think will do for now until someone better comes along" 

My perspective on relationships are changing, and I can see that my fairy tale beliefs are no longer in existence. Nothing is too good to be true. This is life, we need to accept it for what it is, and not HOPE.